Since my last post, my life has been down hill. I finally had the guts to leave Tim last May 2008. I wasn't happy about what I did but I knew it was going to be for the better. My dreams of a perfect ending and a happy family were shattered. I thought that things would change. I thought that with the birth of our daughter he'd be mature and make things right for her sake. But we both had different ways of showing our maturity and how to deal with our situation.
Come to think of it I became selfish. I only thought about myself too. But then I couldn't be in a "relationship" that had no serious commitment. I couldn't wait for him to grow up and own up to his responsibilities to me and our child. It was sad but that was the reality I had to face.
Actually we were supposed to get married June 2008 but I backed out. I felt like I was the only one who wanted to get married and he was just agreeing and going through the motions just to get it over and done with. He wasn't doing it because he loved me. I felt that that was more important than getting married. To me it was like a slap in the face. I loved him very much and I was willing to do everything but he didn't feel the same way.
Come to think of it I became selfish. I only thought about myself too. But then I couldn't be in a "relationship" that had no serious commitment. I couldn't wait for him to grow up and own up to his responsibilities to me and our child. It was sad but that was the reality I had to face.
Actually we were supposed to get married June 2008 but I backed out. I felt like I was the only one who wanted to get married and he was just agreeing and going through the motions just to get it over and done with. He wasn't doing it because he loved me. I felt that that was more important than getting married. To me it was like a slap in the face. I loved him very much and I was willing to do everything but he didn't feel the same way.
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